don't wanna weep alone at home...thus, I'm going out!

walking in the rain. emotions kicking in. reality striking me.


worst December of my whole life.

why didn't the world just end on the 21st Dec 2012?

that would have spare me the pain,

the disappointments,

the sorrow,

the sadness,

and a broken heart.

Mysterious Ghost Ships and Haunted Stories of the Maritime World

On the last day of 2012, at work...i , in fact everyone was so reluctant to do any meaningful work.

while browsing and studying on marine stuffs i came across this list and these things always fascinate me:

Top 10 Mysterious Ghost Ships and Haunted Stories of the Maritime World


i personally like the top 3 and actually researched on them. enjoy :)

AFTER EARTH - Official Trailer

Starring Will Smith and his son, Jaden.

This is surely gonna be a big hit.

Can't wait to see this.

our days are numbered...

yet... it doesn't bother u

...how silly

bringing back memories..

i'll be missing you :.(

梁靜茹 會呼吸的痛

you would never understand why would i have reacted that way....

it's something beyond just the surface....

it's driven from within....

something that's to be kept secret from others....

...

i think i might have gotten "ill"

never thought this would help release my hatred towards YOU..

wish I could meet you some day..

listening to old Singaporean uncle talking about his old tales is really interesting and eye opening..

love how he expressed his feelings..through vulgar words and over-the-top kinda expressions...

he has lived his life well...full of colours...ups and downs...

meanwhile I haven't...I guess the first I need to do is start travelling...

waiting for night fall...

sitting at the deck with a stressed up angmoh...

still pondering on my own future.. like a big heavy stone on my chest..

First time being on board...

End of day 1...

I actually like it here. Nice foods, nice bed, nice thick blanket and pillow (I like high and hard pillows ^.^v). Air conditioning is also super cold which is to my liking but I actually have to put on a jacket! Bad part is I've only brought short pants! Damn it!

And to the foods, each person will be given 4-5 meals a day! Free flow!! You can have infinity (while stock lasts) cereals (with milk of course), all variety of drinks (energy drinks, juice, soft drinks etc) , breads, cakes, fruits and many others!

Everything is free on board and with good services. Oh and i'll be checking out their gym, hopefully it's good. This would make a paradise for my brother! He love cereals!

...

i miss u.. really wish to be sharing all these with u in a happily free mood.. its just too much happening..

...

Sigh...

I wish I can be more important a person to u. I wish.

好想念我的侄女们。

那天当我要离开酒店的时候, 彤彤竟然拿了个小熊到我这里, 原来它是可以说话的。

它说了 "I love you"。她让它重复了几遍, 当时她不是平时顽皮的自己, 很认真。

那一刻, 我真的很想哭。觉得会被想念和爱惜的感觉真的很感动。

到最后我还是忍住了。

好想快点再见到你们。

staring at this old ahma in the MRT...

no, I'm not sick...

she just remind me of my grandma...

...how i wish home is how it used to be

playing the role of a listener for the past two days....

think i did a decent if not good job....

i was actually envious of them, at least i could give suggestion and idea to their problems....




how can I find my own listener?

when can this ends?

this is getting bad!!

i'm dreaming of my colleagues and manager during my nap....

i need to see more faces during off work time.....

i'm soft-hearted....but it really hurt

you always have to be right, and cant be denied....

....多的事，你不知道的事.

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie

And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

so many places that i wish to go with u...

wonder if u will ever have the time or heart to go with me...

i don't need glam and fame...just pure happiness from the bottom of the heart...

without present, there is no future.....

so what is it to fight for for future when present is not even being fought for?

全部都給你

一開始沒人看好這段愛情 但是我總覺得不愛可惜
一開始沒人看好這個決定 但是愛情是我們的 憑甚麼由你決定

健康，我几乎要忘了你是怎样的了。。。快回来吧！

:(

Kim Hyun-A 김현아 金泫雅

Hyuna of Kpop band, 4minutes, has just replaced Lee Hyori as the sexy goddess of Kpop IMO...

总是被问到一些同样的问题，

回答的好累也很无奈，

。。。


最大的决定也都做了

该做的也做了。。。即使是全部人也不看好的决定

can you make my decision not be a mistake?

Wanting 曲婉婷 - Drenched [Lyric Video]

Below is the top comment from youtube by Christie Chang:

這首歌唱的好催淚
其實常常做很多事去感動對方
遲遲都沒有得到回應
愛不是一種投資
不能以投資報酬率來計算
所作所為的目的都只是為了讓他能夠開心
重點是他的開心 而不是回報
就算無法挽回
只要曾經有過那麼個曾經 就值得滿足了:^")

Wanting's voice is just too influential....

真的唱到心里去了...

finally....

....I have submitted IT

as to my expectation, people who were told of the news are shocked, surprised.

actually I'm still digesting with the fact myself. oh well, only God knows where this is leading me to.

I'm really happy and flattered to know that I'm being missed...as u know...I'm not the person with the sweetest mouth around...I don't fake and always be true to my heart...

Textually Active

 
this is soooooooooooooooooo funny and so true in a lot of cases!! haha....

does this happen to you too?

have you been sending texts and gets totally ignored? or only get replied after 2-3 DAYS? i get that sometimes with certain ppl! and it sure spoils the mood hey! lol....

직접부른 이영현 - 천년의사랑(원곡:박완규)

信乐团's <死了都要爱> original version in Korean being covered by this tremendous singer...Eaguri

the power and pitch by this guy is waaaaayyy better than any recorded/live versions by any singers, even surpassing 信 himself in my opinion!! he's really amazing!!! wonder why he didnt get famous.....i hope he does!


this guy should gain popularity just like PSY in the Gangnam Style frenzy!

有時，

放棄是另一種堅持，

任何事，任何人，都會成為過去，
而是你的終究是你的。

这样还有什么意思？

why can't I get hold of myself anymore?

why is it that I can't feel genuinely happy anymore?

I have tried to release it, but, it just come back to me all so quickly...

what is it at the bottom of my heart?

I, myself do not know the answer...

Kobe Bryant

its a rare interview of Kobe Bryant which was made only recently.

this interview has touched on a lot of popular topics relating to Kobe.

Kobe is one of my favourite players whom I follow as I was growing up.

can't believe he has been in the NBA for 17 years now.

as much as a ballhog and temperamental player you are....you will be missed once you retire

and it will be sooooooooo strange to be watching the Kobe-less NBA.

nonetheless, Kobe is a great example in many ways.

祝君好

你有顾过我的感受吗

无名的伤感...

写了半个小时，到最后还是没发出去，

没有勇气要求，没有资格承诺

时间。距离。不是朋友

i don't need a perfect world, i just wish it's "2" instead of "3"....

stressful day at work...

things have always been going smoothly during unofficial runs, and when it comes to the formal day of testing, it F-ed...

hopefully it'll run better tomorrow after the tweaks i've made...

met jacky from brunei! wow! his gf gave up her career and stayed here for a year....now they are getting married in july!

even though we RARELY talked and not close to each other AT ALL but at the moment when he told me about his relationship i felt somewhat different. a good guess would be because our experiences are similar.

really happy for him and they have set a great tone for those in long distance relationship. it shows one can actually give up everything that has been established in a comfort zone just to be the one he/she love.

a great story. happy marriage! :)

the biggest reason that I've yet to change my phone to Galaxy SIII is because of our conversation in WhatsApp...

they are truly precious.....

cant believe i actually scanned through ALL my photos on FB....nostalgic....


saw different stages of myself....


from a 黄毛小子 who had left home for the first time,
to adapting to the winter temperature,
to started to work at fast food outlets,
to start going out partying,
to working late night for uni projects or assignments,
to rushing thesis,
to going KTV 10 times a month,
to seeing friends leaving one by one,
to attending graduations including my own,
to join the birthday surprises to many many,
to seeing my hair from long to short to long and to short again,
etc etc etc etc etc.


too much memories to list down....


gloomy weather to pair up with the gloomy mood and future....


today is 端午節,
has never been a really special day for me,
but it's something BIG especially for older generations and will always remind of gathering...
as each year goes by and the evolution of social media, i've been reminded of what am i missing out with family members....


i'm just waiting for that one chance

....i really wanna do this

好想要去旅行。。想要去些没去过的城市看看。。

悉尼，台北，香港，北京，东京

还有美国，欧洲，加拿大。。


唉。。何时何月和谁去

孩子不坏

Singapore's production, 孩子不坏. The two main characters from "I Not Stupid" series.

It's great to be able to watch it here!

反省

你说的对。

我真的很顽固。

也不够用心。

我会改，尽可能改！

要戒掉无谓的习惯，增强忍耐力！

我會發著呆　然後微微笑 　接著緊緊閉上眼 　又想了一遍　妳溫柔的臉 　在我忘記之前

阎奕格 - 《她说》

一路走来，

随着许多刻骨铭心的回忆，

或许，

这一次。。




累了

i cherish

i appreciate

i am in doubt

has it finally came?

the time and the decision that will reshape my established life?

it will be my biggest decision yet!

i guess i should look at all the cons over the pros.

this should be interesting.



P.S.
hope my good friend can stand up stronger and move on quickly.

趙詠華 - 最浪漫的事

such a meaningful song! :)
listening to this will make things easier ^^

drama-ing....

缺宅男女 is so touching.....family moments, husband n wife....

feels so touched seeing the couple working hard together towards their dream....

out of all...

yes...!!! finally!!

after 2 days of research and trial-&-error I've finally found the solution!
FUUU Citect SCADA! i nailed u....though only for Tags importing and exporting~ but im confident i'll conquer you soon
=\

moment of joy because at least something is working out now, despite all the setbacks....

......im feeling sympathized but at the same time saddened

.....complicated

胡夏-愛夏

很感动的一收歌。。歌词也蛮贴切的




會不會有一天四季全變成夏天　
是不是這樣你才會相信有永遠　
看你靠著我的肩　剛剛睡著的側臉　
白日不斷在我心裡蔓延

愛上你第一個夏天　你就問我愛會不會變　
如果你想要去冒險　我會不會給你一片天　
你說愛情　也許沒有想象的永遠　
才會有人忙著說再見

愛上你第一個夏天　我就想給你整個世界　
想帶你一起去冒險　想跟你一起接受考驗　
我的愛情　並沒有你想象的善變　
只是全都放在心裡面

你不需要再跟別人去爭奇鬥艷　
在我心裡你永遠是最美的夏天　
不管季節怎麼變　我都會在你身邊　
愛你聽你把你給寵上天

愛上你第一個夏天　你就問我愛會不會變　
如果你想要去冒險　我會不會給你一片天　
你說愛情　也許沒有想象的永遠　
才會有人忙著說再見　

愛上你第一個夏天　我就唱給你整個世界　
想帶你一起去冒險　想跟你一起接受考驗　
也許愛情　比你想象中的還遙遠　
只要你願意在我身邊

我會陪你一直到永遠

溫嵐 - 忍不住原諒

作曲：王於升
填詞：姚若龍

明明有著秘密隱藏　你的解釋那麼牽強
我躺在你的胸膛　因為不捨得而迷惘
清晨陽光吻在臉上　惡夢過夜就該遺忘
完美的都是假象　愛總有起伏會碰撞

忍不住原諒　是拒絕想像
追究的下場　會把未來埋葬
當愛是最強的渴望　就失去放手的力量
忍不住原諒　是有過天堂
才會再嚮往　回美麗的過往
容忍並不是太軟弱是深情的　堅強

明明有著秘密隱藏　你的解釋那麼牽強
我躺在你的胸膛　因為不捨得而迷惘
清晨陽光吻在臉上　惡夢過夜就該遺忘
完美的都是假象　愛總有起伏會碰撞

忍不住原諒　是拒絕想像
追究的下場　會把未來埋葬
當愛是最強的渴望　就失去放手的力量
忍不住原諒　是有過天堂
才會再嚮往　回美麗的過往
容忍並不是太軟弱是深情的堅強

忍不住原諒　是拒絕想像
追究的下場　會把未來埋葬
當愛是最強的渴望　就失去放手的力量
忍不住原諒　是有過天堂
才會再嚮往　回美麗的過往
容忍並不是太軟弱是深情的堅強

在別人眼裡的傻是多勇敢的　愛啊

Nagaoka Revival Prayer Fireworks 「Phoenix」 2009/8/3

what an amazing display of fireworks by the Japanese!!

would really love to experience something amazing like this with you by my side..

i want to travel around the world witnessing touching moments like this with my loved.....you

tired

this isnt how i envisioned things to be...

i expected mutual respect, better understanding AND improving after each fight...

i've made changes and adjustments each time...

there should be no excuse to do something one shouldn't no matter what the situation is....

祝福

曾经我们是一样的。。可以说是同病相怜。。

如今的他们，真的令我很羡慕。。

好羡慕。。

你们要珍惜。。

[蕭敬騰] - 夢一場

我們都曾經寂寞而給對方承諾　我們都因為折磨而厭倦了生活 

只是這樣的日子　同樣的方式　還要多久 

我們改變了態度而接納了對方　我們委屈了自己成全誰的夢想 

只是這樣的日子　還剩下多少　已不重要 

時常想起過去的溫存　它讓我在夜裡不會冷 

你說一個人的美麗是認真　兩個人能在一起是緣份 

早知道是這樣　像夢一場　我才不會把愛放在同一個地方 

我能原諒　你的荒唐　荒唐的是我沒有辦法遺忘 

早知道是這樣　如夢一場　我又何必把淚都鎖在自己的眼眶 讓你去瘋　讓你去狂　

讓你在沒有我的地方堅強 

讓我在沒有你的地方療傷

i've got it at last....

after i've been saying this for 1-2 yrs, i've finally bought my very own laptop....

throughout my entire life, i've owned 3 computers, for which are all crap....*sad

NOW i've got my first ever decent computer....

My dear Compaq,
We've been by each other's side for past 6yrs.....i dont know how, but we both survived and held on to each other for 6 freaking years!!! you've trained up my patience, optimization and maintenance...thank you....

from now, i'll have to slowly phase you out now....

I shall walk, hopefully, another 5-6 years with my new lappie....