the month of December

.......is the last month of the year! how fast is that? one year has just zoom passed! a year ago this were the last days of me working for AP Automation inside the new office; working hard for that failed-to-deliver project, i could still remember the smell of the office and everything else...it felt like it was just a few weeks ago.

.......is the month where my current Robotic Lab project is finally running with actual samples in it, as of today, i'm feeling really happy and accomplished for where it's sitting at despite the lack of support and lotsa other things not getting done, construction-wise.

 .......is the month where holidays are the most but yet at this moment i wish to work as much as possible. i love the feeling when im working hard and focusing on just how to solve work related problems and not my personal problems. its easier that way. that could be why im sleeping much earlier and easier these days?

been staying on site for 2 months or so, and it was really good to see all the colleagues again during the Christmas Party! i thought i would have been forgotten but that wasnt the case. i was actually the hot topic because of my new hair! WTF? lol....and all the rumors about me! hmpf! damn u angela and terry, the culprits! nonetheless it was great time catching up while having buffet and free flow drinks (including wines, beer and other drinks). and gotta thank my partner for being there. i love the prawn.
(P.S. i got lucky drawn for winning a bottle of wine ^^)

.......is the month when a number of friends have left Perth for good. this is never a pleasant feeling. not only friends, but colleagues as well. just when we are starting to bond, they are departing. this feeling is just depressing. at the end of the day, thats life, people come in and out of our life, sometimes we just have to wish them nothing but the best with their future endeavors.

.......is also the month where it all begun

.......and it could very well be..................

:.(

每次听都会泛着泪的这首歌

又回到最初的起點
記憶中妳青澀的臉
我們終於來到了這一天
桌墊下的老照片
無數回憶連結
今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約

又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她


那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳

度日如年

原来时间是可以过得那么慢的。。

好多话想对你说。。




希望你会喜欢那份礼物。。

how will the future unfold?

December of 2011...
3-4 more friends are leaving Perth for good,
I've started to lost count on the total number that has left...lets try to recall
benny, weining, pris, jasonpang, hoong, cresta, long, jasmine, janica, amanda, del, chris, meivun, ben, melissa etc and the list just keeps going and adding up...


things will never be the same with the departures of all these important friends,
what would make of us that's been left behind? future looks bleak...


in this month, almost the entire group will be flying off for their holidays...
wish i could leave too....actually at this moment, i would really relish the chance to go to a whole new place and start all over again....


............


I was really about to push forward hard to the idea of hunting a job in SG....that was really the idea...
life could have been really ideal, even though i hate the humid weather, but i believed you would have make it up for it.

unfortunately....we are this point, your assumption was the 导火线....and also the way how you always retaliate with that 复仇心, it's really driving me mad, so mad to the extent that i snapped and eventually lost control.....all leading to insomnia and skipping work! just don't want to see or talk to anyone whenever i'm feeling crap, that's how i do things, just lock myself in the room, watching dramas, playing videogames to cool my head.....

December is a month that will always be special for me, listening to the song Falling In Love at this time will add the extra emotion on recalling how it was one year ago, remembering all the scenes of me sitting in front of the laptop but not doing any work just keeps texting.....thinking of this will never fail to put a smile on me!


.....只有回忆是永存的

....累了

...鼻酸

...







我不知不觉 又徘徊在从前
秋风悄悄的呼唤 听来尽是孤单
落叶的期盼 片片左右为难
心走寂寞攀 跟著飘进黑暗


我不闻不问 也许好过一点
被遗憾关在房间 挣扎只是拖延
无望的空谈 一声声的轻叹
回忆扯不断 怎麼摆脱纠缠


找不到方向 往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱 在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人 相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光


找不到方向 往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱 在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人 相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光 有你在我身旁




...我爱你 

鄭秀文 - 唯獨你是不可取替 (許志安 - 和音)

曾聽說有許多戀愛　沒有結果
卻剩傷心者感慨　令我都刻意避開　是我不敢相信真愛
但你不惜真心真意對待　竟令我再感到意外
讓我獻出全部熱愛　全面喝采

如果今天將失去　眼前的一切　剩低清風兩袖也不計
唯獨你一個是不可給取替　是我生命裡的一切　Wooh
如早知今生跟你　有幸可相愛　在當初應更努力為未來
其實我知道　是可一不可再　下半生准我留住你　一直相愛

誰似你這般欣賞我　誰也說不上你一般清楚我
問我可需要甚麼　願你終身交托給我
讓我一生好好把你照料　請讓我體恤你需要
讓我獻出全部熱愛　從來沒缺少

如果今天將失去　眼前的一切　剩低清風兩袖也不計
唯獨你一個是不可給取替　是我生命裡的一切　Wooh
如早知今生跟你　有幸可相愛　在當初應更努力為未來
其實我知道　是可一不可再　下半生准我留住你　一直相愛
其實我知道　是可一不可再　下半生准我留住你　一直相愛

the journey started with "cokolat"

first day going back on-site

a really tiring day...

had to wake up early...

slept late...

headache, flu, cough...

havent had so much hands-on for awhile...

breathing in all the cements...

...and yet, not even a word of console or regards from you

your approach is totally wrong....

it'll hurt me and also yourself...

do you realize how much damage you've done to me in the process?

i've never faced anything like this...why do you want to make it so difficult for me?

in exactly 3 weeks time, i'm supposed to be on the way to have our long awaited meet-up...

as of now.......that might not be happening anymore......hope things will turn well

the important

really can't wait to go home and see my family.

finally I'm home-sick! right about time.

MAYBE, the time for that move has arrived.



...it's been a long week

it has made me, or rather forced me to understand what it's like to be by myself.
what am I fighting for? what am I actually holding onto?
the future i saw is getting blurry..
i hope I'll see fireworks again ...

她說

作詞：孫燕姿
作曲：林俊傑

她靜悄悄地來過 她慢慢帶走沉默
只是最後的承諾 還是沒有帶走了寂寞
我們愛的沒有錯 只是美麗的獨秀太折磨
她說無所謂 只要能在夜裡翻來覆去的時候有寄託
等不到天黑 煙火不會太完美
回憶燒成灰 還是等不到結尾
她曾說的無所謂 我怕一天一天被摧毀
等不到天黑 不敢凋謝的花蕾
綠葉在跟隨 放開刺痛的滋味
今後不再怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

她靜悄悄地來過 她慢慢帶走沉默
只是最後的承諾 還是沒有帶走了寂寞
我們愛的沒有錯 只是美麗的獨秀太折磨
她說無所謂 只要能在夜裡翻來覆去的時候有寄託
等不到天黑 煙火不會太完美
回憶燒成灰 還是等不到結尾
她曾說的無所謂 我怕一天一天被摧毀
等不到天黑 不敢凋謝的花蕾
綠葉在跟隨 放開刺痛的滋味
今後不再怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

等不到天黑 煙火不會太完美
回憶燒成灰 還是等不到結尾
她曾說的無所謂 我怕一天一天被摧毀
等不到天黑 不敢凋謝的花蕾
綠葉在跟隨 放開刺痛的滋味
今後不再怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒


不怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

it's been awhile.....

so much ups and downs has happened since the last post.

i'm really glad the storm is over....but still there's much more for us to work hard at.

i really hope by the end of the year everything will be settled and have a much clearer insight to future path.

...

it seems that my world revolves around you too much; much compared to how yours revolves around me.....you're no less of companions

漂浮

最近，似乎有很多艘船已经开始慢慢找到自己的码头。。

为它们感到开心因为真的时候的了。。

往往无奈的是，真的找到适合的时候却最后发现原来已经被泊了。。

选择是？

等? 快快另找一个？继续漂浮？

such a nuisance.......

......it is for needing to explain and explain and explain for all the small things! have I made a big fuss and do all the questioning when I was in your shoes?

AND....
thank you for saying those words and showing your ignorance to me when I'm sick and needed support/care!

Goodnight.

a picture is worth a thousand words

燈光熄滅了　音樂靜止了　滴下的眼淚已停不住了
天下起雨了　人是不快樂　我的心真的受傷了

beautiful song by 王菀之

unhappy to happy to unhappy

did shopping and bought something i really like!! wanted to share with u!!
that cheered me up a lil, only momentarily though...

now feel shit again!! i really do not want my mood to be driven by THIS!
at least tomorrow is Friday and am looking forward for lunch tomorrow! my fav. soup!

很愛過

by 丁噹

another excellent to-be-hit song from Della!

good lyrics too. recommended!

year 2011

this is the year which i will be rained by bad lucks....

it has been proven with the string of events as follow:
- they needed "it" so i had no choice but to send all of "it"
- basketball rim snapped
- cut fingers
- 1st Speed Fine, Demerit Pts 4, Penalty $150
- 2nd Speed Fine, Demerit Pts 2, Penalty $150
- car got hit-n-run
- serious sprained on lil pinkie
- 3rd Speed Fine, Demerit Pts 2, Penalty $150

bet there will be more to come which I DON'T wish to happen.....

sigh.......anyway, so far it's all about $$$....hopefully the old saying is right 破财挡灾

gorgeously attractive

only one song can describe the feeling now.....

"Can't Take My Eyes Off You".....

gahhhhhhhhh

after 8 hours of facing the friggin' computer everyday and yet i'm still facing another computer at home for the remaining 6 - 7 hours!! OMGGGG.....I wanna smash the computer screens!

in desperate need of something NOT having to do with screens! books perhaps? that is so not going to happen for what I believe....what else can one do at home apart from using the computer? hmmm....

at this moment, seems like hitting the gym is the only way out.....

holiday holiday, come come!!

矛盾

have you been through times when it's better off not knowing the fact?

but, out of insecurity or curiosity that you would want to find out more and what's going on?

dilemma much

MyCeleb

Wow! It's my 100th post! Can't believe I can actually hit this number...surprised surprised! Though work wasn't smooth today but had a much satisfying yet short session of basketball...then followed by dinner!

At dinner, thanks to Iris('s friend) introducing this iPhone app called the MyCeleb....and the fun begin~

ok i looks like the famous Man Utd player?

so i try with another pic, ended up looking like the korean actress from Winter Sonata?

(Park Ji-Sung is still haunting me~~)

try again! woohoo~ though it's another girl but it's my Goddess, BoA!!! lol...

 

hehe looks like I wasn't alone as Kenneth was claimed to look like famous j-pop singer/actress

waiyee looks like Kyoko Fukada?!

yiwen = famous jap singer/DJ ?! she's a hotties too

hoong = past Japan PM?

ok! no further comments needed...but maybe, why is it only 63% alike?!

gabrielle = aya matsuura (just realized there are so many japs here)

woohoo! finally a non jap...pei2 = fan wen fang!!

then... IRIS = BoA!??!?! Or Kim Tae Hee?! Or Kim Hee Sun!? OMFGWTF!? couldnt believe it so i tried with other pics but still ended up with looking like BoA~~~

Decided to add some others who weren't there into the fun!

my brother = Bruce Lee....this is a cracker~

cresta = siti nurhaliza! haha woohoo~ Malaysian product ehh

DT = John Woo? or Tackey? that's a big contrast!

not bad of an app that provided fun for awhile....

5am randomness

from chokolat
to buyaobuxingbukeyi
to heyheyhey
to bz n bw

to fatty boom boom
to ...
and ...

getting different

no more dinner partner
no more FIFA before, after dinner and (or) before sleep
no more laughing-non-stop 1-on-1 basketball session
no more iPhone talk
no more Brunei water-blowing


now comes someone opening the main door as I'm getting outta my car from work
now comes someone opening the room door as I come or roaming downstairs
now comes eye-brow-raising interesting questions shoot at me
now comes the strange way of knocking my door

people come and leave...life...


and another friend is leaving for good too....totally clueless on what happened here!

believe more will be leaving and that could trigger myself to move as well.....let's see


today's dinner was one of a kind! basically talking non-stop for 3hrs straight....could hardly remember what I've eaten or drank and how did they taste....amazed me that someone could have joined literally NO social networking sites or anything else AT ALL....really "special"....like some kinda anti-social freak? but no...in fact a really fun, bubbly person to hang out with!

life's interesting.....anything could happen

double blow.....

started off as a great day with hyper mood and got my work done, contributing nicely, feeling accomplished..... and loved....

then 180 degrees turn....shit afternoon....followed by needing to pay rental plus utility bills in the evening!
(behsong! even though this is a must! Meh~)

and to cap it up, at night....received bad news! sighh...just when I was about to plan for going on holidays and now this! GG.....

please grant me that job.....or I guess I seriously need to start investing in lotto.....

happiness.....

....am glad you've found it

though our paths are diverging and may not cross each other....

I'm happy for you!

"No matter how far we travel, the memories will follow in the baggage car"  - August Strindberg

2 months

actually it hasn't even been that long but it definitely feels to me as if it's been at least half a year or so..

all started with the gift asking then "courier" here and there..simply thinking bout it puts a smile on my face!



what's in the future?

一半

丁噹 - 一半

喝酒的半　一起看電影的半
早午晚餐的那個半
朋友不能留得太晚　明天要上班
唱K的半　一起去旅行的半
聽懂我的笑話的半
我的生活　只差那個人就　美滿
快樂想與人分享　快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯　心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單　這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享　幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填滿
節日卻　提醒我　孤單
沒有想法　有想法又能怎樣
只能寫部落格整晚
幾個流言安慰不了　心裡的遺憾
沒有負擔　原來也是種負擔
自由多得讓人心慌
你羡慕我　那要不要跟我　交換
快樂想與人分享　快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯　心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單　這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享　幸福就只剩一半
努力把日子都填滿
別來提醒　我多孤單

happy birthday

got my birthday present
wish things could be simpler...

3rd day at work...still trying to settle down and turn off the holiday-mood switch...realized my experiences are futile! wanna start contributing asap...thus far, 3 days of work 2 days of thinking nonsense...

U always pop out when I thought we'll be lost in touch...or when I'm down....

!@#$#%^$%^&^&*()$%@#

able to meet my buddy for lunch again.....

then felt pretty content doing clothes shopping alone and ran a few errands....

sudden swing of a mood when the night fell to cap the day.........................

feeling super tired!

update!

it feels like it's been away since i've written anything here......

first thing first,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR LITTLE SISTER, JOAN!! I still prefer to call u "meimei"..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU....I will get you a gift when I see u real soon, k? Hopefully you will be able to cope with the new environment which I know will be really tough. try your best anyway!







i've got two BIG projects to be done commissioning in two weeks time! quite a lot of pressure I must say. really feels like just walking away but it's too irresponsible! so yeah hopefully everything goes smoothly. anyway, I'm finally heading into a new stage of my life! i hope it will be a good one and only gets better as time goes by!! and...NEXT target will be to get a house!!

lastly, I'm heading home in 2 weeks time! but this time will be a different home (again) and at a new place (K.K.), not sure if u can say it's new as I originate from there...anyway! it'll be a whole new experience but I'll definitely be missing my Brunei friends and buddies! fortunately, i'm attending one of my best buddies' wedding in Brunei so at least I'll get to see them, and I'm excited for this reunion!

 

P.S. this is the Cherry season, I've come to really like this season! it's been well....full of surprise giving! hehe..hopefully i'll get to see you soon....(buyaobuxingbukeyi)