stucked

in between....yet again.....

will this ever end?

HOME SWEET HOME

it's so nice to be back home!!! (discounting the weather)

it's so HOT here!!!!! Man, i wish i can just wear a singlet and go.

anyway, it's so nice to be hanging out with buddies again...and Brunei isn't as dull as it looks.

there are places to chill and have fun.

and now, there are so many friends to catchup with, hopefully i have enough time for all.

i wonder what u are doing, as busy as usual? :)

Merry Xmas

hope you like it =)

at home finally.....and thoughts

been having so much activities recently......

Party,

Beach BBQ,

Farewell dinner,

Adventure World,

Strawberry Farm,

Bar drinking sessions,

Birthday Dinner,

Catchup Dinners,

Annual X'mas Dinner,

Karaokes,

Movies =),

........feels so good to be at home tonight!

i MISS home SO MUCH!!!!!

WAS so looking forward for going back to Brunei two weeks later

hmmmmm

i thought everything is settled or at least cooled down to some extent

unfortunately, that isn't the case

and I don't think that will ever be

why are you doing all this?

aren't you suppose to have the most life experience

and thus able to understand situations and conditions

why are you causing all the miseries?

i loved you....

but seriously, if what I've heard were true,

you might as well just not come back

i wish for a pleasant holiday trip home.....

=)

好心情！！

i wish that....

last Friday was the last time for assignment(thesis) submission

my PR application process will be free from obstacles

i'm paid according to the hours i work

i could support my family as soon as possible

i can have a longer stay back at home

all my friends can find a job and stays in Perth

you are having a good life

惋惜。。

你是最好的。。。

真的好想你。。。

Do or Die

This will be a tiring weekend....the last weekend in my uni life, hopefully...!!

:)

it felt good to be able to talk with u again....

算了吧。。。

i'm a nobody to u.....

潘玮柏 路太弯

我在这里 计算终点的距离
下一站 有没有更期待的结局
眼 闭上眼 看不看得见过去
看不看得见 原来那个你 和幸福的关系

路太弯 梦在转 错过的人已不在
以为我 能习惯 一个人的安全感
路太弯 爱在转 明知忘记会很难
我一路上 跌跌撞撞 却找不回拥抱的形状

付出过是不是就换得回希望
呼吸太乱 世界太宽 缘份毕竟太短

我一路上 跌跌撞撞 却找不回拥抱的形状..................


Do you remember this song? :)

changed & unchanged...

after almost a year,

my room layout has changed

my formatted computer has changed

my external hard disk has changed

yet,

my bed hasn't changed

my D: drive hasn't changed

my photo, movie folders hasn't changed

thus reminds me of how,

you fell asleep every night due to the fatigue from work

you liked to play games with my computer

you liked to watch Stephan Chow's movies

22nd....

the day that marks the milestone of 4.5 yrs, supposedly.....

nevertheless, it will be a date that i will not forget.....

breathless....

how i wish i could just give up on everything and run home.....
the pressure is too much to cope......


it's hard to breathe...


really hope that i can keep it and not get sent off.....
please....life has been bad enough....
i dont need another blow.....
fingers-crossed!

maybe she's just not that into "you"....

distance KILLS........it looks all so fragile now.....

didn't expect it to die, at least not that soon and sudden.....but i guess it's her weakness....

or was it because influences?

or was it that she was just not that into you......?



anyway, it's all good now....you got the answer.....no more sufferings on deciding what to do......

pain should go away as time goes by.....

sweet memories will remain.....and people moves on.....

just a feeling late in the night

am glad there's still a place for me to reminisce...

L.D.R.

splitting is the rule of the game....

wish we could be the exception....

S T R E S S

pressure mounting as each day is passed!!
ARGHH!!
!@#$@#$*&Q@@!*#!@#

放不下

staying at home make me thinks..........alot

=(

your smile

can brighten one's day :)

inspiration

your blog is surrounded by creativity through HIDDEN secrets,

it shows your true emotion and feelings,

hope that HE will see it someday....all the best!

*P.S. finally writing something not about myself, that's a good step i suppose, i'm getting there :)
btw, keep up the good work, da....

.........

i think i understand......

:)

YOU

i miss YOU

a day to remember is remembered

It's the 22nd....

happy supposed-to-be 53rd monthsary....

会想起我吗？

你会偶尔想起我吗？

有没有一些事情会让你想起我？
有没有一些地方会让你想起我？
有没有一首歌曲会让你想起我？
有没有一些电影会让你想起我？


我一直在执著于 “说好的幸福呢”：

怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

但是：

你已经远远离开, 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份, 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你....是因为我太爱你......

While alone....

took these pictures while waking up 6 in the morning for don't know what reason (could be the hangover), and so decided to withdraw rental fees and have the once-so-sicked-of Maccas breakkie...really miss those times....


P.S.

he's all alone now.......

a dream that i never dreamt of.....

in the dream, u invited me to a bar along with some of your friends....

it was a long table attached to the wall, as i'm not close with your friends,
i was sitting next to the wall, then you are opposite of me, and Mr.M was sitting next to you,

Mr.M is someone i never liked...anyway, we were drinking, i could see that u two were sitting so close to each other, and there was such as big gap between u and the other friends, i had to ignore it....i don't even know why i was there....

during some point in the conversation, Mr.M actually said something that was only shared between us two...hence i was suprised! u were shocked that he spilled it out too, and u hit him...and laughed

at that point i really couldn't take it anymore and decided to leave.....
but i think the dream didn't end there but i couldn't remember the rest as i went back to sleep after waking up from the dream.....

i was woken up by the painful sensation the dream gave me...........it feels sourish.....

那女孩爱过我 by 李岗霖

词:陈嘉文(Ven) 曲:李岗霖

面对面 我和你只隔了一个圆
距离让你佔满我视线 再见可能是永远

在人群裡面等后离别的人红著双眼
在这感伤的飞机表面和幸福逆向和你相见 多刺眼

* 那女孩爱过我 让她自由 让她回忆 我的温柔
她追求的梦曾是我 爱要懂放手 我懂

梦醒中 冰冷的手藏在口袋中
你曾经填满我的手 现在好空洞 你的手 变成风

你爱过我 像烟火 眩烂过
残留的烟火散落着 我还在淌泪
你的眼 你的手
我爱的你 好窝心等待着你 不想放弃 no~
自由是我能给你的爱情 你能用我的心 飞出去.......................

THE END

wishes time could go back to before deciding to come to Perth....
the decision that made my parents in so much misery.....
the decision that has put me in where I am right now.....
why did I choose to come? the reason is not here anymore....
sorry dad...sorry mum....I've caused too much trouble.......

thanks for the memories.....
it was anticipated but why is it still this painful.....

got to thanks Amanda for introducing this awesome song for me, "Just one last dance",
it's the most touching song ever.....!!
i believe the play count of this song on my player will be so high that no other songs can come close...he he....

doesn't know what to write anymore......hope to have a sweet dream!

goodbye

你好吗？

这几天你过得开心吗？

这几天我都过得很不充实。。时间不断地在被浪费。。
整个人完全没有冲劲。。。
这个闷在心里却说不出口的感觉到地是什么？很无奈。。

我不了解现在到底是什么，或许她说得对？

真得很累。。。。

Reminisce

So miss the time we cooked together.........................

Lost......

i guess i need some time to think about it too..........

&

i miss home

Realize the value of time

Imagine there is a bank account that credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day.
Every evening the bank deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course?
Each of us has such a bank. It's name is TIME.
Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds.
Every night it writes off as lost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to a good purpose.
It carries over no balance. It allows no over draft. Each day it opens a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day.
If you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours. There is no drawing against "tomorrow."
You must live in the present on today's deposits. Invest it so as to get from it the utmost in health, happiness and success!
The clock is running!! Make the most of today.

To realise the value of one year, ask a student who failed a grade.
To realise the value of one month, ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.
To realise the value of one week, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realise the value of one hour, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realise the value of one minute, ask a person who just missed a train.
To realise the value of one second, ask someone who just avoided an accident.
To realise the value of one millisecond, ask the person who won a silver medal at the olympics.

Treasure every moment that you have! And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with. And remember time waits for no one.
Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why its called the present.

You're my angel

Once upon a time
Archangel in the sky
Made a cover every night

Once upon a time
The angel loved me so
It'a miracle
In the snow, my heart won't be cold

My Dear
You are my angel
Tell me what you know
Something should be told

My Dear
You are my angel
Tell me where you go
I will brace behind your throne

Once upon a time
My angel gave me life

Such a beautiful song with great melody and lyrics that touches the heart......

Persevere

my family is now facing one of the biggest crisis in their life......
i really hate myself for not being of any help at all......
at 24..... i'm supposed to have the ability to support my family.....

it's as you said....
let's pray that SOMEBODY will appear and give us a lifting hand....
just have to pray.....please!!
we must get through this!! this SOMEBODY please appear!!

he's been a very good man...he's been putting his family as his first priority.....
he would rather spend money buying us useless craps instead of a badminton shoes for himself.....
he's been working hard and loyal to his employers....why are they being such assholes?
he doesn't deserve all these!!!!!
why is the God playing such a game with him?
if it were for the MISTAKE he had committed!
fine! it's been more than payback after all these!
please spare this man....please......

dad, i miss u....please hang on!

In Coma......

Hitachi Deskstar HDS721616PLAT80......Please do not die.......!!
Will try few more ways to save you......Pleaseeeee

Today is one of the worst day ever, no doubt!!

Maybe I should buy lotto tomorrow....

Lost Contact

it's been 2-3 days....

before that,
i was browsing through our pictures tagged together in Facebook and looked at how the bond between us didn't get diminish but grew stronger.....
i've saved the pictures, look at them and smiled.....
they were some sweet and funny moments.....

..... i love you....